Relaunch, one step

Changing up my blog is one step in my relaunch. It's not step one because evolutions or transformations don't happen for me in a linear, step-by-step fashion.
Many things have influenced this inspiration. First was the death of my father. Next, within a few months was the blow up of my marriage, by the other party. I am just past the year mark for the former and approaching the year mark of the latter. I am starting to get some energy back.
Something about death and grief is life-altering. No, more like thought- or attitude-altering. I just don't think about some things anymore. Many things don't bother me or take up bandwidth in my brain because life is about so much more than the slow, bad driver ahead of me or the long line at the grocery store. Even bigger things like how will I save for retirement or pay for my child's dentist visit just don't keep me up at night anymore.
I don't know the answers. The older I get, the less I feel I know. But I don't care about these worries, they don't have a hold on me. I'm in a figure-it-out-as-I-go phase. For those who have known me a long time, this might sound like a big shift. I was always the planner, the worrier and the one looking ten steps ahead.
With recent traumas and nothing (seemingly) working out as planned, I am more in the moment. I even find it hard to have some conversations because often what people want to talk about is the past or the future. Even a question of what happened during my day can stump me. I can tell you how I feel right now and maybe something will bubble up from my day. But, at this moment I am feeling hopeful, inspired, worn out or sad. I find the more in the moment I am, the more how I feel changes. When I feel what I am feeling and name it, often it resolves itself. For now. Many feelings resurface often. But, I don't run or hide from grief, pain, anger or joy, love and appreciation.
I never meant for this post to become a ramble. I am relaunching this project and a few others in the coming weeks. I hope to chronicle this and inspire you to reconsider how you are spending your time and how you'd like to spend your time.
I have been greatly inspired recently by Chris Guillebeau. If you feel a restlessness or like there must be something more; if you got a college degree or lost a job and are casting about for the next thing; if you have a dream buried deep, check out Chris' site and see where it leads you. He is an authentic, pragmatic thought leader with lots of great resources for anyone feeling like they need something more in life.
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