It happens. You start to think you can't do it or some iteration of, "What are you thinking?"Since I studied with a teacher who came from science to meditation I have practiced feeling what I feel and not obsessing on it. I learned from Skillfully Aware that I and the world are constantly changing things.
Neurologically, we are recording devices. We have been imprinted with everything we have experienced even if we were not aware of it at the time.
There is a movie playing in my head. There's a voice in there that sometimes says things that are comforting but mostly things that bring me down. I have found that the harder I try to not feel something or hear the talk in my head, the worse it gets. If I just turn and lean right into the feelings, if I tune in and listen to the talk in my head, the feelings and the talk pass or quite down. The me inside my head is like a toddler. The mini-me in just wants attention. And when I give myself attention the mini-me looks sheepishly as if to say, 'Oh, hi. Uh, nothing.'
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